Sometimes it seems that it takes a drastic situation to realize what is most important in our lives......

hmmmmm......

so everything is going good

i havnt lied in a while and im being completely honest with people even if it hurts them.....its better than lieing about it cause it just gets worse later.......i talked to SOMEONE last night and i think im gonna be ok.....its gonna take me a while longer to deal with it.....and its still hard but i feel in a few more weeks i MIGHT be ready to start again with someone new.......and its hard to think of it.......and i say all kinds of crap about how i dont want her back and this and that.....but in my heart i do......but i cant have it.....we know its not best for either of us.....i want it but yet i dont......so im just gonna let it go....i need to depend on me......not someone else........being single is very lonely.....and i miss being held......and someone telling me they love me and without even questioning it saying it right back......love is the best and worst thing......i feel like a little emo kid.......but idk i am gonna start getting myself in the routine of reading my bible....i need to get more christian like......i want to feel like im close to God again.....i need that in my life......and idc what anyone says.....I alone know the relationship between me and God.....so dont judge.......and im gonna try and stop cursing.....cause its a disgusting habit......so thats what im gonna be doing for a while.....i have been taking pics lately....i have just like felt inspired i guess......idk..... i just enjoy it.....and i feel acomplished like i have done something.....i feel like crap right now.....my ENTIRE body is sore.....that was the most amazing show i have ever been to....and its not cause they are a big band.......its because i enjoy them.....just everything about them.....they are just inspiring how they do what they do cause they love it.....not because its COOL to be in a band.....and they give credit to Jesus....cause nothing in this world would be possible without God.......so yeah this was long.....im going do whatever now......bye bye

"What goes in to a man's mouth does not make him 'unclean,' but what comes out of his mouth, that is what makes him 'unclean.'"               Mathew 15:11